Wow

So yeah, I just got one of those calls you hate getting. Only I didn't hear the phone ringing because I was a touch heat-sick from dropping Mongoosine off for a Girl Scouting event and hanging around too long under the hot sun when I'm no good at hot. So I let my phone ring.

When I got home, Spouse was all "I need to talk to you."

And I'm all ?

So I went to get Snapdragon out of his carseat. "I need to talk to you."

I'm wondering if I did something wrong, like that time that I allegedly started a (true) rumor about a creepy guy who lives down the block and he got irritated and pestered my MIL about it at the library. Did I mention I didn't start said (true) rumor and that um... first ammendment, look it up sometime?

So yeah, I'm going through a list of all the stupid things I've done lately and having trouble coming up with what the matter could be.

Well, sadly, it wasn't something I'd done.

This is what has been relayed to me.

This morning my grandmother had an episode. She went into respitory distress and no one came to assist her quickly enough. By the time the nurses got there, she was not breathing, and had not been breathing for a while.

Despite the DNR bracelet on her wrist and copious paperwork to that effect in her file, they felt that they weren't positive if she meant it, apparently, and they decided she was a GAR. You know, go ahead and resuscitate.

She is now in the ICU of a local hospital, on a ventilator, and in a coma. There is still some brain stem function, but nothing in the parts of the brain responsible for things like cognition and a person's sense of self.

Prior to this morning she was in a nursing home because she has stage IV cancer, which has spread to lots of parts of her body. She also had a stroke many years ago and only enjoyed the mobility of one arm, her neck, and head.

In the hospital she tested positive for a MRSA infection.

So if I don't get back to my emails the way I normally would, or if you @ me and I'm usually slow to reply, it's all very confusing at the moment.

I don't know what I think at the moment.