Tuesday, August 18, 2009


My Grandmother passed away this morning.
I suppose it was technically yesterday morning, but I haven't been to bed yet, so it is still today for me.
She lasted 11 hours off the ventilator.
We're all very tired.

Don't let me make it out like today has been entirely sad.
There have been good things.
Today Snapdragon learned to roll over. He can roll both from front to back and back to front. It's a very important milestone, and I am thrilled.
Today we got to spend time as a family and share heartwarming stories, like the one about the time when my uncles were skinny dipping and some girls came and stole their clothes, and as they climbed up the nearby hill to try to figure out where the girls had run off to, standing stark naked in the sun, they were faced with my grandmother who had come looking for them since they weren't supposed to be gone in the first place.
Today was not an awful day.

My grandmother had cancer. This was a less painful way to die than to die slowly of cancer.
This was a less agonizing event for the family than to watch her die slowly of cancer would have been.

This was not an awful day.
But I am drained.
It has been a hard day, and I need to go to bed now.

I promise I'll be back to upbeat shortly, but for now, thank you for bearing with me.

4 reflections:

Jessie Kaitlin said...

Very sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to your and your family.

Samantha @ Mama Notes said...

I'm so sorry for your loss

Pamela said...

So sorry for your loss!

Upstatemomof3 said...

Sorry about your grandma. Mine died very slowly from cancer and I am glad yours did not have to go through that. I am thinking of you.